After the first three years, she should have given up on Kevin. Something about him just kept pulling her back to him. It did not matter what he did, or how he showed her numerous times that he was not the one for her, She never gave up. She met this man when she was nineteen and now she is thirty, still alone and no Kevin.What a sad life she lived ,making a man, an ultimate goal in life, without exploring other goals and other opportunities that came her way.
Realizing after all this time, she hate herself very much.
Realizing after all this time, she hate herself very much.
He(Kelvin) was a test from every angle. A test against her judgment, her morals, her intellect, her pride, her womanhood....The absolute worst a woman can have. And what was worse, She thought she was more in "love" with the fact of breaking him down. She never did.
Now, she cannot watch love stories, listen to overly romantic love songs, no jazz, nothing that could resurrect any memories of him.
Now, she cannot watch love stories, listen to overly romantic love songs, no jazz, nothing that could resurrect any memories of him.
Being in a one-sided relationship is like inviting the devil into your heart to dance with you, seduce you with his good looks, make you laugh, make you cry, make you weep with ecstasy from the lovemaking. Only to wake up the next morning lying next to a fallacy. A demented illusion you do not recognize. Everytime he smile at about you, turns to judgment and disgust. This is how she felt when she was with Kevin. Nothing she ever did or said was right, and friends wonder what she saw in him, what made her stay as long as she did. How did she keep forgiving him after every infraction , with the degree of those infractions growing in intensity each and every time. She made herself a promise that she had to let him go, no matter how much she loved him or could not function without him, She had to. But , it had to take something drastic like sleeping with a coworker for her to leave him alone.
She was betrayed on both ends, because the coworker wasn't woman enough to let her know she liked him or that he had hit on him . And Kelvin, testing her on every front ,actually thinking, she would still be with him after that. Narcissism at it's finest, At long last she had to let this cat go. She had to force selfself not to remember anything about him and believe me, it's a battle everyday. She had to realize she never really lost anything, She is old enough to know that real love don't feel like this. Real love will never ask you to compromise your beliefs, or ask you to stop being your real self..And it's through the grace and mercy of God, that she was able to finally let him go, How could she have been lost for so long?
She was betrayed on both ends, because the coworker wasn't woman enough to let her know she liked him or that he had hit on him . And Kelvin, testing her on every front ,actually thinking, she would still be with him after that. Narcissism at it's finest, At long last she had to let this cat go. She had to force selfself not to remember anything about him and believe me, it's a battle everyday. She had to realize she never really lost anything, She is old enough to know that real love don't feel like this. Real love will never ask you to compromise your beliefs, or ask you to stop being your real self..And it's through the grace and mercy of God, that she was able to finally let him go, How could she have been lost for so long?
A decade was a decade too long.
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