RONI

I am a 24-year-old female who is in an extremely weird situation. I have known Roni for two months since I started working in Wine & Co Gh. Ltd. He was very cute but a white man, the only problem was that He was my superior,and apart from that, he was way fatter than me and looks way older for his 27 years. So, we would be a little weird couple if we are together since i am also very skinny. Based on that physical discrepancy all my colleagues in the office kept teasing me about the possibility of him becoming my boyfriend.

Being myself full of prejudice I also kept talking stupid stuff about that. I even made up a couple of nicknames for him, such as: "obolo", "obiggy", etc. I kept teasing him that he could become my boyfriend if he gains weight and so on and so forth. I simply did not realize that during all that time he has had feelings for me.This was simply because i was in a loving relationship with Prince my then boy friend who will not give chance for any man to come my way. He was loving ,caring ,charming ,but above all he was unecssarily a jealous man..

Even though Roni and I were strictly friends and nothing else we use to share e-mails compliments and text messages together.Roni gives me admiring looks in the office which mostly makes me uncomfortable...My affection for Roni i will say was just platonic and nothing else . This was because my love was some where else.(Prince)

One fateful day,Roni sent me one of his dodgey text message which i received in front of my boy friend Prince. It was a common message expressing mixed feelings of love and friendship.Prince, my boyfriend in one of his jealous confrontations decided to fight for his love.upon smelling danger in the tone of the message.

He confronted Roni in a very abusive manner and embarrassed me in the presence of all colleagues in the office that both of us are flirting together.Roni knowing what he has caused kept his cool and dialogued like a real gentleman.. After this stormy argument he confessed to me that he has always loved me, but my sarcastic remarks about his weight, etc. made him think that I do not take him seriously.

The bottom line of all that is that I realized my own real feelings for Roni was growing day by day after Prince decided to put up that remote show in the office. I lost him (he told me that he has started dating another girl). That wasn't a great problem since my affection for Roni was increasing day after day. We ended up in bed a couple of times (we did not have real sex, we just hugged and talked for hours and hours) and he still insists on me spending some time with him like that, because he feels comfortable with me. However, the last time we were lying next to each other he told me not to turn my face towards him, because we will kiss, then we will hug and... we will not be friends anymore. He also told me that is his country it is normal for friends to lie next to each other hugging like us. I was really confused about all that because i realised an irrisistible desire for him and nothing could stop that.'not even him. I really loved him and I did not know what to do. Eventually the inevitable happened between us and it was just fun.I can still recall the events and anytime i do I smile..Ooh Goodness Another issue was that Roni after realising how uncomfortable the atmosphere was in the office :having to go out with a co worker,decided i quit the job as he finds me a container to run my own business.The Wine and Co. company eventually run out of stock and Roni had to go back to his country for summer.

It has been years since Roni left.We communicate on fon occassionally and send text messages but I have this strange thought, Even though I still love him and will love to meet him again, I wonder if I should keep going on like that for a little more than a month more or should I end this story right now? The more i give it a thought ,the more other men gather behind me with proposals.Should I fall in love or wait for Roni..Will he come back to marry me?I have a funny feeling that he will come.But if even he fails to come as he always say ,I know we have shared much fun together and i will always have that special place for him where he belonged.hmmm

A decade too long for a loving lady

After the first three years, she should have given up on Kevin. Something about him just kept pulling her back to him. It did not matter what he did, or how he showed her numerous times that he was not the one for her, She never gave up. She met this man when she was nineteen and now she is thirty, still alone and no Kevin.What a sad life she lived ,making a man, an ultimate goal in life, without exploring other goals and other opportunities that came her way.

Realizing after all this time, she hate herself very much. 

He(Kelvin) was a test from every angle. A test against her judgment, her morals, her intellect, her pride, her womanhood....The absolute worst a woman can have. And what was worse, She thought she was more in "love" with the fact of breaking him down. She never did.

Now, she cannot watch love stories, listen to overly romantic love songs, no jazz, nothing that could resurrect any memories of him. 

Being in a one-sided relationship is like inviting the devil into your heart to dance with you, seduce you with his good looks, make you laugh, make you cry, make you weep with ecstasy from the lovemaking. Only to wake up the next morning lying next to a fallacy. A demented illusion you do not recognize. Everytime he smile at about you, turns to judgment and disgust. This is how she felt when she was with Kevin. Nothing she ever did or said was right, and friends wonder what she saw in him, what made her stay as long as she did. How did she keep forgiving him after every infraction , with the degree of those infractions growing in intensity each and every time. She made herself a promise that she had to let him go, no matter how much she loved him or could not function without him, She had to. But , it had to take something drastic like sleeping with a coworker for her to leave him alone.

She was betrayed on both ends,  because the coworker wasn't woman enough to let her know she liked him or that he had hit on him . And Kelvin, testing her on every front ,actually thinking, she would still be with him after that.  Narcissism at it's finest, At long last she had to let this cat go. She had to force selfself  not to remember anything about him and believe me, it's a battle everyday.  She had to realize she never really lost anything, She is old enough to know that real love don't feel like this. Real love will never ask you to compromise your beliefs, or ask you to stop being your real self..And it's through the grace and mercy of God, that she was able to finally let him go,  How could she have been lost for so long?    

A decade was a decade  too long.