My Secret Love

I first saw her two years ago at a university dance show where she participated.

She looked so sparkling and beautiful. I couldn't take my eyes off her. Then, I found out that one of my friends was also good friends with her. In my last semester in university, I got to meet her couple of times through her (my friend).We became greeting friends(hello friends) Unfortunately, I was so shy that I didnt have the guts to start a conversation with her.

Coincidently, one time she was also there when we all hung out at the club. I secretly hoped that she didn't have a fiance!! really hoped that I would get to talk to her, but I missed the chance.The gut was still not there.The only voice that spoke to me was the voice of fear and panic,as another side of me kept saying "Be a Man"

Bravely i said in my spirit "Yes i am a man"but the more i gather the confidence to move forward the greater my cells and tissues vibrate with fear. I wish I had talked!!

We all graduated, and I have no way to ever be in touch with her but, I cannot stop thinking about her. I even lost interest in other ladies--just because I picture her and miss her everytime I see someone else. I dont know if this was infatuation,lust or if I have started to like(possibly love)her.

But how could this happen I mean, I barely know her, and with all the crazy feelings I was having I didnt know what to do!

The funny side of it is that,now i have an un-imaginable confidence, a lions heart,and a poised ego to face all class of beauties,however,she can not be located anywhere in the wonderest atlass mind..hmm

I could only hope and pray to God that our paths could cross again in the future someday... and that even though we may never meet again,or have the chance of marry, I truly wish that she achieves whatever her heart desires in life and be successful at anything she dares or wish for. I miss her so much!!